Schwelmo's Welt

I am currently trying to avoid writing my thesis. Not that it would make any sense as it will get more and more stressful as longer as I avoid it.
But how do write if you can't have cigarette breaks. You can replace it with coffee breaks but that hurts your tummy after the 6th one. So instead I do baking. As you see I made fantastic almond-orange-lemon-poppyseed cookies, out of a hazelnut cookie recipe . Yes, they are vegan and yes they were supposed to look like the ones in the magazine. I blame our oven for the slighty burned color. I also blame the oven for the failure of the "Creamy Cashew -Almond Nut Loaf" you see with a perfect Granny Smith apple. It actually wasn't a failure as it tasted terrific. It just did not keep the shape. Anyway I took it with me on a hike. Something I haven't done since months (February I think). Going for a hike is also very usefull for avoid writing your thesis and/ or papers. But the hike was good. Even I did not feel the benefits of not-smoking at the very steep part.

One other favorite time killer is searching Vegan-blogs for recipes. Then I get hungry and go home and cook again. Like this Malaysian Tofu-Curry. I have no idea if it is any similar to any Malaysian Curry but it is delicious ( and keeps you away from smoking/working). My flatmate found a little green caterpillar in her portion so it wasn't completely vegan.
Writing your blog is also great for avoid working. And then there is still our backyard................

I stopped smoking! Six days without any cigarette. ..not yet, day 6 just started. (Ok, I had 4 puffs on other peoples cigarettes). There wasn't any particular reason to give up. Unless I said last year I would stop by the end of it and a year later I thought it might be time. And (so far) it is fucking easy. I only had yesterday the feeling I need to brake something or somebody, or lightning an atomic bomb. I didn't,that was somebody else (hey, Kim ILL Jong, since you showed the whole world your penis enlargement you might also start to feed your people!) I was close though! It just would have been changing one destructive behaviour with another one. And I am on a cold turkey. No nicotine gums or patches, thats cheating!
The main problem is: I love the smell of tobacco! Or maybe it is just the addiction, which makes me think I love it. But I don't get nervous/excited/on turkey/ driven by desire, if somebody smoke a filter cigarette. They stink! But tobacco is different. So I guess it is not just the addiction to nicotine. I try to remind myself that it is actually a bit like coffee, which never (or very, very rare) taste as good as it smells. And the other thing is, smokers are good people. Most of the people I am hanging out with (or did hang out in Germany are self-rolling) tobacco smokers. I like hanging out with them, that will be a challenge for a while. Maybe I will start to ask you to blow into my face, or better (if you are female and good looking) blow directly in my mouth! Maybe we could also hold hands as I really need to do something with my hands now. I realized on Saturday that it is not much better having beers in your hand instead of cigarettes.
And it makes it even more expensive than smoking!

Picture: A picture from the past. Bushfire while I was in Cairns and still smoking. Two things completely NOT related.